Random Yet Not Random !

The ad doesnt really make sense,they are usually brilliant with their content! But I love the music and the lyrics and that's why it got a place here. I am still looking for the lyrics. "Dil Titli, Dil titli sa,kabhi yaadon kabhi saapono ka...." P.S: This is what the ad is trying to do they have a new scheme of exchanging d old set top box with the new one... that's why the old friend with the newly found kareena...

I've been living with a shadow over head I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just incase I ever need them again someday I've been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs I know that its out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody to get me through the night I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love and If I open my heart again I guess Im hoping you'll be there for me in the end There

The other day while we were chatting, actually we were yapping about all the craziest thing we have done, Oh, his was, how should I put it,lets say a 20 on 10, on Were you crazy? meter (Duh, I just got creative here LOL)the story will be out soon, I just need to,copy and paste the whole conversation LOL voila!. My story on the other end , is a, lets say, a 10 on 10. Not crazy as his definitely :D! Here it goes. Last Sem, Renuka's B'day. Now there were lot of things that were going on in our lives then. Dude, you have no clue. Renu wanted to de-stress, and she is kinda gutsy (adventurous sort of)unlike me, I may sound all daring but deep down I am "Shit, no way!" (Oh, but I do,do it,I just need a li'll push LOL). Night before her b'day we decided to do something,we kinda had not done (So, we have sort of been adventurous! dad has these tiny 10 bottles, you may find one in most of the defense houses, it's actually filled with drinks, but you are not supp

He always said the right words, always made the right move. He could have any girl he wanted, but his eyes were fixed on this one. Her I don't care attitude, made her desirable. She knew he checked her out everyday,and he always caught her looking at him. There was an unspoken chemistry between the two,they had never exchanged pleasantries, the only time they exchanged words was if there was a class related activity. It's not like people didn't notice, they did, but they got it all wrong. While they kept looking at this unspoken relationship as an ego war, what they didn't know is secretly the two of them desired each other. Each one waiting for the other to make the move, the tough look, the attitude, all was a game, a game of guessing, a game of waiting. She was not going to say it, come what may! and it was not like he didn't have options. How long was this to continue? Then, she came into their lives. A new admission from Mumbai, this new one, was all color! sh

He was in love with her. The day she started going around with this guy, was the day the realization dawned upon him.He knew this guy wasn't right one for her,he wasn't alone, many of her friends believed and knew for certain that this relationship wasn't for keeps. He never let her know how he felt, there were whispers in the corridor, and she heard them time and again. He was one of her good friends, she knew that something was not the same, but the whispers aren't always true . The relationship ended.They were many who celebrated that day. As days passed,they started working on their final sem project,Samira, her best friend had noticed the change in him, she knew for certain that,as the days to graduation got closer,it would get really difficult for Raghav to hide his true feelings from Meera for too long. Samira, Meera,Veer and Rahgav had been project mates for all 4 years. Raghav had confided in Veer a long time ago, while Samira was the intuitive one, who truste

J.L.T The best roses that I have got till date(na,they were not from Saurabh :)) were from a friend who had them delivered by post while he was pursuing MS from states.The roses and the cake reached PG early morning on my b'day.The memory is still fresh in my mind, It was a bunch of loosely tied 12 fresh, long stemmed red roses.Its been almost 6 years! Every girl that day was in awe of those roses :), they were just beautiful. Though we are not in touch anymore, I don't think I can ever forget those roses. While we had just entered our 2nd sem ( or 3rd), a bouquet of yellow roses paid a surprise visit on my b'day.It took me some time to realize who they were actually from , I was pleasantly surprised. It's one of those surprises that you least (never) expect,It was sweet thought then, it didn't last for too long.if only, things would've stayed this sweet! (I am not kind to nurse ill feelings,but sometimes, just sometimes you just can't forget.forgiveness is

I have grown up? There were times, when I sort of cringed at the idea of getting too close (read physical intimacy) before marriage(this sort of legalizes all that!). Today while Anvita and I were talking about this topic that happened to pop up while while we were on our way to movie, we realized how the two of us have moved on from those girls who chastised the ones who did that to, to the ones believe that it's one's life and she/he should do whatever she/he pleases, coz gone are those days when all this was a taboo! Physical intimacy( I am talking about anything from a kiss, a peck, a hug, holding hands, sitting close to making love. ) is a very integral part of the relationship. While words are powerful, touch has its place and many a times, when words fail you touch bails you out. When one gets into a relationship(the sort where you believe it will work out, whether it does or not later, is a different deal)while you are trying to know each other,you tend to build on p

I have a huge huge crush on Shahid Kapoor! O.M.G, you have no clue, I get this high when I see him, sigh! totally, he is like soo, oh boy! LOL . It wont last for too long though,(I am not crazy!)Like Deepti has been putting it, its 'may day' situation my hormones are on a over drive and Saurabh needs to get here ASAP LOL. It's been ages since I had one on any of these heroes, the last was in 10th, I don't even rem'm the name of that hero he he he. I am not the kind to have one on these filmy characters, this is just one off crush on S.K.(he sure is lucky LOL!) I rarely have one on someone I don't know in person. The latest I had is on this someone about 3ish months ago, it was a sweet crush while it lasted, I guess I made it obvious to him but I am not sure if he got it, but what the heck I am glad I had one, if not I wouldn't have like pushed myself in trying to know him and then I would've missed out on all the fun that I totally have off late, he

I am confused, there is this trail of thought, I want to write, write something that I believe in, and then someone comes along (sometimes, its serial/movie) and rakes my line of thought. This has been a very difficult one to write about. Grey's Anatomy, Meredith Grey, she is in love and then confused, and then she backs out ,but then again, she wants him, but now man is confused, which confuses her of her feeling for him Wow! and when she finds this one person, who loves her, truly, she is confused! Should she be with this new one, who is in love with her or to go back to him who she is in love with? Wow, that's right, I just picked but one serial , but if you keep your eyes open, you'll find similar stories around you! Is love soo confusing? Is Love about being loved or is it about you loving someone, or Is it about loving and being loved in return?. what is LOVE? Go ahead, sit down and define it! and let me know what you think of it! Everyone defines it differently, i

**needs editing, I am too tired to do that. Will do it some other day Shekar and Meera had been living in out of choice, all the rules were laid out perfectly,the rules were simple, each one had a separate room, every bill in the house is shared, every chore is divided. It was love for books that got them hooked,4 years on, while the romance was loosing its fizz they still believed that they were perfect match for each other. It was no hassle relationship, neither one was expected to attend to each others relatives, parents were exceptions. Friends, family were warned against the 'marriage' saga! It was convenient arrangement! For a outsider, it seemed liked 2 friends sharing a house, just that they were in a relationship and this is one rule that was firmly set! Even if it was a living with no legal papers, cheating was not an option! Each one was in this arrangement, because they were in Love and just didn't believe in marriage to certify it. Being faithful is all that th

I think this blog is becoming more like twitter or lets say twatter ( I end up writing 300 words or more sometimes!!) he he he,ranting about mundane stuff. If not mundane then its about love, affairs and then again love.lol! I need a topic change!! Off late, most of them, tell me that I write way too lengthy posts! Sometimes, they find it difficult to finish it one go! Baatao, so much for ranting huh! he he he. Btw, there is so much more to write, like about infidelity,live in,emotional cheating,affairs, on how people easily move on and then, lol! I soo am giving you ideas aint I! LOL

Totally enjoyed today's dinner. There is this lane, that connects jakasanadra to Kormanagala,this place is full of small eatery's!specially north indian stuff! Boy was I happy eating dhaba da khana all for just 212 rs, that fed 4 girls!! and grama gram jalebi yummy. This place, can't rem'm the name, also serves lovely baada baada samosa, had we not got our food packed, I would have helped myself to yummy samosa's. The shop waala,kinda of thoodo'd samosa in two halves, poured hari chutney and then mithi chutney and handed it over to this gentlemen and yaar mein kya khaoon ? I was salivating, literally!(he he he, not a nice pic to imagine! So, stop imagining!) without even tasting it , I could already feel the taste in my mouth. Oh ,boy ! I am soo glad, to have found out that a place like this exists! I love eating out, and am very particular of the cleanliness and ambiance and all that stuff, but then yaar, street food ka aapna hi maaza hai! Nothing can beat dha

That's right. I have officially lost my dresses! Who should I yell at ? When to begin with it was my fault! I should have been careful! That said and me being miserable done, the lady( yeah I thought it was the gentlemen) blatantly refused to have carried my bag, while the shop keeper had specifically asked her to get the bags she had carried, she just got the the payment slip! How is one supposed to argue with that? I couldn't pounce at her and hold her by neck and tell her "Dekh mere dresses vaapas kar de, varna, muhje karate bhi aata hai!" LOL.Ok, not the right moment for LOL.Par, yaar, ab hog gaya jo hona tha na!! Kya kaaro?? If only, Anvita was there, just for that one moment! I guess, all that about being lucky is coming back to haunt me! It's like either I am jinxing things for me or there are those who are laagying naazar to my supposedly being lucky!! Or,lets just go with the truth. I lost it, and it was all my fault,and blaming people isn't going to

I hate this world, no, not me, for being careless and leaving behind 1500 rs worth dresses that I bought just two hours ago, but hate the guy, who had supposedly left his 4000rs worth spectacles in the shop next to the one where I had happily left my bag and in all the commotion picked up my bag along with his and left! Idiot didn't even bother to check what was in the bag.I wanted to blame myself, but Saurabh hai ki kuch bolta hi nahi "Ha ha yaar, never give money more importance than it deserves! Its something we will have loads" .(Tere muah mein ghee shaakar!) Anvita hoti na, this would have never happened! She is soo used to me being careless, she always checks with me for mobile, purse and bags before entering any shop!! This is what happened, I walked out of the shop while Divya was paying the bill,I was tempted to buy imli toffee, and then I happily entered woodland to check out the shoes on sale, In the meanwhile this guy must have come over ,he was supposedly up

*This was supposed to come out last evening,I wrote all of it, but couldn't post it! This is the first time I have fallen sick since he has left for Cal. I have been running slight fever on and off. When I am sick, i have to be pampered, taken care of, just like a kid! I know I am old enough to take care of one :), I guess everyone seeks for attention when sick and tends to get home sick!, with me I needs loads of pampering!He in Cal,ma and pa , far away in Belgaum,family in Bangalore at kormanagala,it's not been easy. So today I ended up doing something that I am not very proud of! I cried in office. buckets!! He was busy with his presentation and idiot had left his mobile in the bag. I sent him like 3 messages (People at work who matter were busy too, all of them! right then I kinda hated each one for not being free) before I decided, its time, I have to cry now LOL ! I don't know if it happens to you, but with me, I suddenly get this strong urge, urge that tells me cry

She said "i'll make a nicer one and then you blog about it" Duh! Like I would listen to her, in any case, there will always be a better one! Proudly hanging in their drawing room. I want one of these in my drawing room too!(Oh, I'll get her to make me one, she has no choice he he he)

Lie , a expression, opposite of truth, convenience, escapism, boldness,or just fear ? Love , A overrated emotion, license to hurt, misery, tears, fights, forgiveness,selfishness, selflessness, sacrifice,happiness or Love ? Embarrassment , shame or acceptance. either or both . Friend, cry,fight,hate,love,forgive,forget,give,take,coffee,lunch, share,lie,truth,honesty,pretense,bindaas or just you and me.

Can things go back to being normal? When you get close to someone, you take somethings for granted. Its just understood, but then if one of you questions it, what do you do? Do you stop being yourself. Do you create space between each other? Space.Will that solve the problem? Or do you talk about it? Talking. Will that help? Words are very powerful. They can cause a rift or they can fix it. Saying it right. Choosing the right words is very important. Its easy to mess up, but difficult to fix it.Then again, its only those who care enough who question you.They matter. They matter enough for you to hear them out, for them to hear you out. To fight and squabble and at the end of all of it to forget and smile. Smile. When you smile, you know all is behind you, and yet another day starts. A bright new day.A day where you choose to forget some, forgive the others and Move on.

Sometimes whatever you do, you just cant forgive somethings. Sometimes however hard you try you just cant look past the scars. Scars that just deepen with time.Hatred is a very strong emotion.Hatred feeds on anger. Anger feeds on ego and ego, ego eats on relationships.

'I can't even talk to her. What should I tell her? Will she understand? I don't even know if I understand it myself.' these thoughts had been haunting Shurti for a week now. Mayank and she had been had been together for 2 years now.Just until few months ago,Mayank was BDM for India, but after his promotion as BDM for Asia pacific region, he had been living out of his suitcase. The li'll time that he did get, he caught up on lost sleep, and the rest he spent lazing around in the house. Shruti took it as a positive change initially, but with days rapidly changing in to weeks, she just wasn't sure about it anymore!They had got engaged 6 months ago, just before his promotion. This sudden change in her life had her craving for attention, the attention that she was soo used since she had met Mayank. He had been sincerely trying to make up on the lost time,but work was way too demanding. She knew he still loved her, but his continuous absence from her daily life w

I hate Saurabh, that's right! I hate him totally for not stopping me! This weekend I went ahead and spent close to 13k. Last evening, I made a call to him, coz the guilt had started to settle in (had to get rid of it, how else would I go shop today too!) "Good, you deserve it. Enjoy yourself!" . When you have someone who spoils you like this, you really can't blame yourself for too long. That's why the guilt never stays for longer than 2 mins he he he.Oh no, there was another reason too "Good, now I can buy myself 17k worth mobile" . That's right, this was his deal he he he. Anvita and I had already made plans for today. Boy, did we shop!! Just that, today she spent too and that gave me some sort of pleasure, you know the kind " Thank god!! I am not the only one spending" he he he (she is soo going to kill for this). Dad was in a state of shock "What is wrong with you? you have soo many dresses? What did you spend so much money on? ho